Tuesday, January 27, 2009
CNY

This is the 2nd day of CNY, exceptionally tired.. We've been busy since SUnday, the eve of CNY..

CNY Eve
My hubby & I went to my mum place for reunion in the noon & "shun bian da bao" for CNY1 breakfast.. thereafter we went over to my In law hse for dinner.. Food was really a lot & sumptous.. As usual steamboat at my MIL hse but this round no BBQ and we stay on till 12am to pray.. reach home at 1am.. we flat on e bed after our cold bath.. hahaha..

CNY 1, wake up at 0830 & start reheatng the rice which was cooked on the eve.. Superstitious to say this is let us have surplus over the next year.. Hee.. reheat the food brought from my mum place and ate.. start bathing/makeup and we left hse at 11.05am..

Journey 1, we went to our in law hse to greet them "Gong Xi Fa Cai" and sat down for half hour.. 2, we went to my mum house @ Bt Batok to fetch her and stay on at her house for half hour.. 3, next we went to Ah Gong hse @ Jurong West & stay on 1hr.. 4, we went to Ah Ma hse @ Marsiling & stay on for some snacks/food till 6.30pm which is about 4hrs.. 5, we went to my in law hse again and stay on till 11pm.

We are like "pao ger tai" running all over the North West area.. Sweat & tired..

CNY2
So today, we went out from 0930am to have our "Big BF" @ Mcdonalds and went to my mum hse for lunch & left at about 0330pm.. we decided to stay on at my mum pl to watch "pirated DVDs".. no place to wander and as I changed into my pyjamas, my sis brought her BF to wish Happy New Yr.. Oh My, I was like "Arghhhhhhhhh..." Quickly rush into the toilet and change into my suit again.. So malu...

By 4pm, we reach home on our air con and watch the DVD again for half hour but am really too tired to continue... we slept till 630pm and now awake to update my blog really writing nonsence over here.. ~~Awww~~ I hate CNY... I have to give ang bao & yet no return... so shack... so boring..

Time flies, I've taken leave since Fri to do remaining spring cleaning, after tmr, I be back to work again on Thurs.. so lazy...... Anyhow, tmr, I will still go to office to on my pc and flip my files.. hee.. cos tmr is a good day to "start" work and I just do a "kai gong" style...

Anyway, still wish everyone a very Happy New Yr, past thru this difficult year smoothly with great health.. JY!!!

Saturday, January 17, 2009
Angry

Its been more than a month since my last update in Dec'08. It was not a really good start for 2009. Don't Know Why.........

Our office are shifting to 27th floor in Feb'09.. The commotion has been going on for the arranging of seats. Initially i've got quite a good seats which I am quite satisfied with, however my boss thinks that her place is too big which suits more for our Director to take. So she suggested moving out which I agree becos that was near the Tech Dept which we need to liase with very often. In the end, our claims dept was arranged to sit at the most common, exposed & rowdy area, which none of us like it..

So, we rejected and create unhapiness. Actually, I really don't understand, Y in the first place our dept has to sit there, Y we cannot reject and must accept, Y we can't have our suggestion? Y Y Y?????

So advice was given, if we make noise, changes can be made, fine! if it can't, we should keep low key! After hearing this, I know that nothing can be change, we have no say and I m mental prepared that our dept are gonna take the worst place of all.

Thur, I took half day due to migrane and when I came back on Fri, my boss say she has something to talk about the sitting arrangement again. Well, this time change. Our Dept need not take that worst seat.. ONLY ME will be sitting there together with Flora & another colic..

Of cos I am angry & asked my boss Y am I the only one sitting there, she explained due to space constraint & my dept is near me ah, just behind diagonally nia.. But to me that is not the point. She further explained that Flora's dept also sit there while their boss sit another area. This is totally different. The whole dept except the boss is nt there, whereas for me, my whole dept is away except me is there. See the DIFF???

I told my boss, I can accept such arrangement however, i have my rights to get angry and I asked why am I the one to sacrifice? I find myself being boycott or being kick out of the dept. Though I know, we are just there to work, hack care where we sit, but this is really disheartening.

I asked myself, I am not gracious enough not to be angry, I am neither God nor Saint.. I can't keep my emotions within my heart. Though I talk/laugh/joke with my colics but the internal flame within my heart is fuming. I tried to let go and think on a brighter side but the moment I think of it, my blood just boiled. Because this is not just the seats is about everything..

Like I mentioned in my previous tags, my colic who is executive take higher pay, take less work and now take good seat.

SO NOW where do I stand. I an asst, take lower pay, take more work, take worst seat.. What am I.. No matter how, I've work there 1.5yrs, what do I get? Am I being treated fairly? I don't know.. Y? I really felt unbalance. And when my colic come ask me am I ok, my tears nearly fall, it was at the tip of the eye, I don know if she had seen it, but I controlled and swallow back cos I do not wish others to see the weaker side of me..And when asked if I had further suggestion, I commented that my heart is dead, and that is really true from my heart! Cos further comment create unhapiness and nothing will work out.. 3 of us in the dept argued on the worst seat, in the end, I am the only one sits there, so why bother to comment further... heart break T_T

I hate to pretend that I am strong, I am happy and am satisfied with whatever arrangement they have made for me. I am a very frank person, whatever I like or dislike is all on my face, and I will tell straight to the person. However, I always give chance up to 3x and if the person still behave/react the same/don know where is wrong, I will tell him/her on the spot without giving face..

Writing all these in the blog is not to create sympathy but rather to blast my frustration out. Afterall, I don have a choice, DO I?

I am just glad that Flora is sitting next to me.. After a year's "breakup" we are together again.. Though we will still be bizi wif our work, but I really look forward to my boss "sin mok" & know that I am good!!!