Monday, May 26, 2008
SAD DAY

I reach hm ard 7.15pm, after a bathe, I cook maggi mee to eat.. Really no mood & appetite.. Thru out the whole journey in the train, my tears were at my eyes, but each time I swallow back.. I felt so humiliated after morning's incident. why must i be compared to other people.. I have my pride too and moreover, not as if I commited a grave mistake or big crime which is not pardonable..

I only told my boss there is this particular complicated case which I prefer not to take on, and there she is to rate me as not committed to my work.. Whatever work she has passed me, I already take on, what else she wants. She only listen to their mgr's advice whom is leaving on Wed, doesn't she has her own mind? And why must I be arrange to sit where, do what, I am 30yrs old not 3 yrs old nursery kid. I don have to be told what to do next and what not to do or everything being arrange nicely.

My hubby call at 8.15pm, I finally burst out in tears telling him and was very agitated and in e end, i end e call abruptly w/o saying gd bye still leaving myself crying like hell.. After that I msg to tell him, I m not in e mood to talk and shall not talk or msg again.. This mths' M1 bill would shoot up at least few hundred dollars at the rate he is calling me.. or even 1K i will not be surprised..

When is my DEAR coming home? SAD......so sad.. very sad... T_T

I am very tired after a cry & all those unhappiness that kept in my heart the whole day reali make me very shack now.. yawn~~.. will sleep early hope i can go into deep sleep... T_T